Weight gain…not my friend. Food, my enemy?

I have come to the realisation that my weight gain over the past months is much worse than I thought it was. I am fat. I do not fit into my clothes. I feel tired all the time. I can’t even walk up 3 flights of stairs without getting completely out of breath. I am hungry all the time but then eat so much it makes me actually feel sick from eating too much. I seem to have developed some kind of weird twisted emotional-eating habit that I can’t seem to snap out of. It has happened at least about 3 times in the past month that I have broken down crying because I feel so fat and disgusted and hate what I see in the mirror…and then I go out and stuff my face…and then I hate myself even more all over again for doing that. I don’t want to go out any more, I don’t want to meet new people, I’m afraid everyone looks at me and thinks I’m a disgusting slob.

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