Aaaah so it has been light years since I wrote anything on here again. Think it is time I did. So much changed. I did so much and so little.
Its 21:16 on the 9th of June 2009. I have a brand new laptop. I put down the deposit for a new flat. I quit my current job, have a new job lined up starting July. I left the boyfriend I moved here for. I had my wisdom teeth removed and am still in pain from it. I am watching the movie Closer again. With Chinese subtitles. What a floozie. Definitely one of my all-time-most-favourite-movies-ever. I love Natalie Portman. I’m flying to Barcelona next Wednesday for a few days before I come back and move house.
I have decided my father most certainly suffers from some form of autism or the other. He can’t do more than send me a text message for my birthday and has not spoken to me since April 08 (when I called him to tell him I was moving country), and then he sends me random yahoo news articles on Tibetan monks I do not know?
I watched a movie last night which was deeply disturbing – a Japanese horror film from the year 2002 called Dark Water. I can’t remember the last movie that made me cry but this one definitely did. The story was mainly about a girl who’s mother suddenly disappears one day. Scenes of it seriously gripped my heart and blanked me out. It was much more depressing and upsetting than it was scary actually. Maybe it is the combination of having watched this movie last night, my father’s autistic emails and my general inclination to paranoia that put me in a slightly fragile state of emotional being today?
Kambi brought me all my paint stuff and my fingers are itching to pick up the brushes – might do so tonight! I love it, just the mere thought of being able to paint again after a whole year makes me calmer and puts a smile on my face.
I know this post sounds gloomy but it isn’t meant to be, its all change and its just taken quite a lot of my energy over the past weeks and kept me from writing anything or even doing much. But I think its slowly getting better though.
