This time last year…

On the 22nd of December 2014 I wrote a blog post looking back on the year 2014 – go to “2012 vs. 2014 eh?” for the full post – but in brief – 2014 was pretty shit. Little did I know on that day that my aunt was going to pass away a day later as well.

I ended the blog post with: “I really hope that new year 2015 will be much better, I’m determined to make it better than 2014 in terms of my health & fitness, in terms of my work situation and my financial situation. I’d also like to travel much more, to follow my hobbies more with more travel, writing, painting and photography. I just wish for a year of calm and stability to be able to get my grounding back and find my groove again and spend quality time with the people I love, no more drama, no more stress.” – so how have I been doing in 2015 then?

Health & Fitness: my health has gotten better, I have not had any more panic attacks and anxiety like I did in 2014. Bad news on the back front though – my backpain has gone next level with serious sleep deprivation leading to prescription painkillers and memory-foam mattress purchasing. My fitness has gone to shit – I am now fatter than I have ever been in my life and hate looking at myself in the mirror and only wear big baggy jumpers – this needs URGENT sorting out in 2016. My skin has also gone to shit and it’s like nature’s revenge for having had good skin as a teenager or something?!

Job & Financials: I have a job I love again! I’ve been very happy in my job since March after spending all of 2014 in job-hate, I enjoy the work and the team and look forward to 2016. Financials – not yet back on the level I was at in 2013, but hopefully I’m crawling my way back.

Travel: this year I’ve been to The Netherlands, Germany, New York twice, Zimbabwe & Zambia – pretty good year. Already lined up for 2016 – Sweden, Germany, Netherlands, Romania, Spain and potentially more USA – so definitely a good travel year coming up, yaayy!!

Year of calm? Yes, 2015 has actually been very calm with little drama and that feels good, really good. Grounding? I’d like to think Lozza has a very grounding effect on me, he very much tells me to my face when I’m being a twat – and obviously Tasha does as well, so between the two of them I’m getting a lot of grounding I think.

It’s the week before Christmas and as always it puts me into depression, I hate this time of year because it makes me think of my family a lot and a lot of sadness comes back and this year its extra bad as it also reminds me a lot of my Aunt this time last year, visiting her in the hospice and then her funeral. I miss her a lot and wish she was still here.